Ahhhhhh!

Ahhhhhh!
I jump out of my sleep,
once again....
Can't stand these dreams
that's been keeping me awake.
Seeing smiling faces,
hearing laughter,
how sickening!

Crushes blowing kisses,
lovers holding hands,
smiling, giggling,
how disgusting!

Yet as I sit here,
finding myself alone,
as allways,
I can't help but think of how it may feel.
To have someone annoying you about their...
wait gotta be less negative...
to have someone describe their undying love for you...
to have someone smile at you every given second,
and hold your hand, just to feel close
.............
I don't understand why everyone
feels they need it.....
Nor do I understand why I hate it...
Then again I guess in both cases it's about what you've been exposed to........
As for me...
I'll sit here tonight,
not able to sleep,
because these 'dreams'
of love are disturbing.
God is Good