who am i kidding ? all this jealosy and agony thst i sit

who am i kidding ? all this jealosy and agony thst i sit in , im a jealous boy really feel like john lennon i just want real love guess its been a minute . pissed off from the way that i dont fit in . tell me whats the secret to love i dont get it . feel like id be running a race im not wining ran into the devil today and she grinnig